So here I am again, at UCSF hospital getting DHE for the fourth time. The doctors know me, and I know the drill. I keep thinking that it will get a little easier every time I come here, but it's just gotten harder. I think it's because I always walk in the doors hopeful that it will be the last time I ever have to go through it again. This time is different, though. This time I know it won't be my last admission for DHE. I know this is not my "cure-all." It is just what lets me live my life the way I want to. If it wasn't for this, I would stay home and go to MJC, if any school at all, possibly taking one or two classes per semester. I would have higher pain levels, less energy, and effectually, less motivation. Because I am spending this week in the hospital, I will not only be able to make it to Davis, but I will be able to enjoy myself while I'm there too. Part of our new treatment plan is "coping ahead" by planning DHE treatments ahead of time, instead of after I start to worsen, so we are already preparing for another admission in December. I am praying that this plan helps me finish out a whole year of college strong and proud.
For most of July, I was in Australia and New Zealand. I know right?! AMAZING opportunity! My grandparents took my mom, dad, sisters, and myself on the trip, and we had a blast! I felt so blessed to be there. When you think about it, traveling is not the easiest thing for a person with a chronic illness to do. Often times, it seems impossible. When I was on the trip, my experience was impaired slightly, but it was also enhanced for the same reasons. Of the 21 days that we were gone, I only missed 3 of them because of my migraines. I also missed a few excursions here and there, but nothing major. I experienced the best parts of the trip right along with everyone else, which was a big deal for me. Here are some photos of my favorite moments:
Yes, I got to hold a koala AND feed kangaroos and wallabies!!! Told ya, an AMAZING experience. However, my intention is not to brag about this spectacular trip, but to prove that people with chronic illnesses can have some fun just like others! Of course, every illness has its own set of limitations, but with some ingenuity, perseverance, courage, and motivation, anything is possible! And the only reason why anything is possible is because of God. I am so grateful to God for giving me this trip. It was something to look forward to, an awesome experience to distract from an otherwise uneventful and painful 6 months, and stockpiles of memories for days like today, when the life I imagine for myself seems impossible. You, too can accomplish a better life for yourself. No matter your struggles, obstacles, or fears, God will be there with you every step of the way.
"And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:19
Love always,
Sierra
